Stream of Consciousness 3.17.2025

3-17-2025

Each year I uncover another layer of myself, I violently expose a layer and then heal that layer. For example, last year I exposed burnout and also uncovered my adhd which was a total mindfuck and grief period. I am grateful because I know this diagnosis will be one of the greatest things to happen to me but right now it’s intense. Both ups and downs for sure but I feel like I am fast tracking into living more authentically. I am more confident because I have context for ways I've been feeling my whole life that I thought were wrong. I am in this for the long journey, slowly evolving and metamorphosing through this life. I know this is a big checkpoint that is going to propel me into my success and wealth. Strength, inner fortitude, integrity and gratitude. These things will guide me toward my truest expression. For me that lies in each moment, there is no bigger picture really because I change so much so often. I love seeing where I evolve to, but it's better when I don't try to predict it. I release the neurotypical conditioning and embrace the everchanging essence of me. It is exciting and motivating to embrace the “chaos” and trust that it will take me somewhere – as long as I am secure in my foundation, my inner fortitude. It’s not that I need to “grow up” or be an “adult” – I just need to trust myself more. And have the confidence that I know what to do and what is best for me. As long as I listen to my body and my intuition. I am a sovereign being and I can control and design the direction of my life and at the same time surrender to surprise. I guide my life in the direction of curiosity and excitement. From there it reveals to me what I am ready for. And if I remain open to opportunities and interactions, more doors open for me. And so it is!

STRENGTH . INTEGRITY . JOY . PATIENCE . INNER FORTITUDE . PROSPERITY . MATURITY . PERSEVERANCE . CONFIDENCE